so after 2 years of not writing in this, i have decided to atempt to try again. getting out your feelings is healthy, ore something... and after reading all those entries 2 years ago, i have realized just how much i have changed.

i was reading a list of things i would like to accomplish (something i wrote back in the days of doing nothing at work) and i actually was able to check off a few things. Its amazing that back then when i wrote that list,  i thought it would take a long time to complete. i wrote goals that would last someone for years, yet i was able to complete most of them. dont get me wrong, the list was filled with somewhat silly, yet very meaningful things to me.  i got a tattoo. i moved out on my own. i got a new job, that i have kept for more than 1 year. i dont know, it just felt so good to check those things off.

 sometimes we loose the simplicity of our goals. we set too high of unrealistic standards for ourselves. i was thinking today that if someone asked me what i wanted to get out of life, i would have no problem answering them. Satisfactoin. i want my work to satisfy me, friends, family, significant other. all i really need is to be satisfied. seems siple, but if everyone just worked for satisfaction, i think that this world would have so much more to offer. people get what they want, yet still try to get more. greed is a nasty, nasty thing, and will one day drive you into a very lonely, unsatisfied world.

soooo get out of the house. dont be greedy. get what you deserve. make a point. quit your job if you hate it. dump your significant other if they truely do not SATISFY you. drink wine. stay up all night. work hard. play harder. smile always, follow your heart, go to lunch with an old friend, wake up early. let go of the animosity, but stay true to yourself. be kind and open to others. take in all you possible can during one days time. love with all you have and take every chance to genuinly satisfy yourself.

last night after a lot of drinks, games, and fist fighting ;), ive realized that i really do have the best friends ever. for any of you that had to witness our crazy night last night, i apologize, but what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger. last night was insane, but good, and im glad that i expirenced it cause i think it brought us a lot A LOT closer :)
so....as,aw,bk i love you girls with all my heart and soul, thanks for being there, and letting me in with such ease. AS you are the epitomy of a perfect friend, i love you more than you'll ever know. AW you are my best friend. you listen to me, give me advice and yell at me when im stupid. i couldnt ask for more in a friend :) last night was our longest fight...im not forgiving you for the back seat action though....BK i cannot express my appreciation toward you. you are an amzing person and i am so happy that i am getting closer to you, thanks for the reality check last night. love you lots

and shay...you are the best, so paitent, and kind and loving. i love you girl.

now im at work, with 2 hours of sleep, tired as hell, hungover. ahhh

<3katie

its been a long time since ive written in here, ive been sooooooooooo busy. the play is finally over, it went well, and its really sad that its over. not just this show, but drama in general. it was the one thing that got me up in the morning. oh well.so school is almost over which is fabulous, no more high school. its weird. san francisco isnt really going to work out because of "financial issues" i put that in quotes because its a load of shit and my parents are just insanley scared of me moving away. so it looks like im going to sdsu which wasnt really my first choice but oh well. i can save up some money an d then move out! i started my new job and now im all nice and tan :) its a fun job, and its pretty chill. well have a wonderful day :)

-katie

life is pretty crazy right now. i just got a new job, the show is abotu to open, im TRYING my hardest to figure out college stuff, filling out numerous scholarships, financial aid, school is crazy, and family kind of sucks. i got accepted to sfsu and that was my first choice from the beginning, but like always, my parents are not supportive whatsoever so i need to pay for college on my own which is way more difficult than it seems. im beyond stressed, and just really tired latley. i have no time for anything. starting tuesday my life is crazy. the news is coming to school at 6:30am on tuesday, then school, then rehersal til 7 then voice lessons til 9 then homework, scholarships, ... i havent really figured out where eating and sleeping come in yet, let alone friends and dating...im soooooo stressed outttttttttttt.....

<3kt

sorry for the complaining... :)